You know what I’ve been thinking the last 48 hours? It has not been that Meg’s parent’s and brother contacted her, when mine live 5 minutes away and I hear nothing via any social media outlet (I have no phone). Nor do I blame them for this absconding themselves from my life entirely. I did that to myself. I just selfishly regret no longer having a respite from this poor unprivileged situation I am in for Thanksgiving. Blame me for not providing– or being provided with anything but the bare minimum. I beg Meg to leave me hourly. I’m not worthy. But, maybe if someone would bestow or offer me with an occupation that will even consider blind folks– I would have a chance. I write blind– I can work blind. I am not a Swiss knife anymore, but I am functional. Teach me and I’ll prove it. I need something to help keep Meg in my belonging :D– to keep my parents in my life. I have nothing and am nothing without these fantastic people. And I can feel them leaving me….. inch by inch…. yard by yard… the ties between us are loosening……… and it is all my fault.