I use words to divulge anger or my bipolar attitude into a segue that is harmless– and yet I now realize that I AM harming my fiance with my postings. I try to be so conscientious and foretelling about these things, but I am not. She said some pretty harsh things to me this past evening……. maybe most were warranted. I’m not a reflective person when it comes to recent happenings. Meg’s probably right. I am the worst. I feel so horrible because I look into her big brown doe eyes and know I am reaching out of my league. I sit here with eyes wide with confusion. Blue, yes. But, who cares when they do not know what direction to go. ? Clueless without a compass.